People Write A Letter To Their Bully | Filipino | Rec•Create
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Pahiya ako during, sa school bus.
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Yung nananahimik lang ako from one corner,
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tapos bigla mo nalang akong ginanoon.
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Kung paano niya ako tawagin na kalahating mapa
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because of my birthmark.
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Di ko rin ina-expect, pero I remember you posting something online
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that I did not like.
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My friends, yung talagang circle ng friends ko
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asked me to join a cosplay group.
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Ako naman dahil doon, mga friends ko sobrang hilig din sa anime,
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sobrang hilig sa Japanese culture.
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Sabi ko, why not? Okay, sige.
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Nagsimula lang mag-cosplay.
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I cosplayed Yoh Asakura from Shaman King.
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Ginawa ko siyang profile picture just because, you know, why not?
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Once na-post ka yon, I was expecting a lot of support from my friends
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and parang ganoon.
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Fortunately, I didn't get any support.
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Instead, I got a lot of really bad comments.
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This was like a person kasi from another department.
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It involved yung asawa niya naka-department ko
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na yun talaga yung naka-argue ko with work.
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Kaya lang parang in a way, siya yung parang...
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parang pinagtanggol niya ako.
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It was on Facebook kasi when she decided to post
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something na hindi man ako pinangalanan,
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pero sinabi yung department ko.
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I think I was the only LGBT member in the company
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calling me out na yung tomboy sa gantong ano
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o yung tibong, yung nagisang tibong.
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So parang, oh my God.
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It's already 2023.
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Why are we still making fun of people who are part of the community?
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Medyo ang cruel nung attack kasi online.
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Everyone can see it.
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And most of you, mga lalaki pa,
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kasi yung mga girls naman, grabe yung support sakin.
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Pero kayong mga lalaki,
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grabe yung pambubulin niyo sakin.
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Tapos at lunchtime, may iiwasan akong hallway
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kasi naka-abang ka doon.
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Swerti ako kung mag-isa ka lang,
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pero kadalasan kasi marami kayo.
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Pag all-boys school, kasi maraming gagawan talaga eh.
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Lalo na pag if you show signs of timidness, softness,
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anything nang didim-weak.
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Actually, this is the first time
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naasabihin ko ito kasi
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I didn't have any guts to tell this even to my closest friends.
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But there were a lot of people
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that threatened my life nung high school ako.
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Just because they hated me.
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Just because I was smart.
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Just because I was just doing good in school.
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There was one time, sa school bus to,
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na-corner ako eh.
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Pa-uwi na kami noon.
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Or like, **** baling ka.
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I went home crying.
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There was this one time that
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tapos nasa honor list ako.
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Ako umuwi ako mag-isa.
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While walking daw,
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ay while walking kasi since wala ngang jeep that time,
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someone blindfolded me,
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then beat the hell out of me.
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I don't know who did it,
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but I know it's one of my bullies.
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Pero I didn't tell my mom.
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I didn't tell my friends.
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I didn't tell anyone except for now.
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At those moments, I felt
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angry, sad, anxious, depressed.
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First of all, siyempre nakakahiyaan.
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Hiyakas na rin mo
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sa klase mo, mga kaibigan mo, diba?
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Kasi yung pain, physical pain,
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mga mamayang gabi, wala na yan eh.
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Pero yung part na napahiyaan ka,
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parang hanggang ngayon nga,
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naalala ko pa, diba?
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Grabe yung insecurities ko before
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dahil sa mga pinagagagawa nyo,
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medyo na-question ko yung self ko na
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bakit sa akin ito binigay?
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Like, bakit may ganito ko?
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Bumaba yung tingin ko sa sarili ko
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na akala ko ako yung taong nabubuli lang,
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ako yung taong kinakaya-kaya lang,
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ako yung taong hindi pinapakinggan.
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May times na ilang weeks ako
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hindi na lang kumain sa cafeteria,
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sa back office na lang ako,
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bumibilhin na lang ako ng food somewhere,
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so like extra gastos during that time.
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Parang yun na lang yung response ko.
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Normally kasi it has a
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flight or fight mode, right?
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I chose the flight mode.
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So instead of having them confronting,
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I chose to isolate myself.
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Ang naging turning point ko was
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my third year high school na talaga.
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Sabi ko, it needs to stop.
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Dahil doon, nag-ano ako,
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nag-start ako mag-boxing for self-defense.
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Di naman ako naging fighter dahil sa'yo,
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di naman umiikot buhay ko sa'yo.
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Tinake into consideration ko siya na
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magbilang ka up until 10,
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or something na magpapakalma sa'yo.
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binabad ko yung sarili ko sa academics
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like full-on, sunog kilay, aral, kamalala.
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Nastop yung pang-bubuli sa'kin
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nung pinakita ko sa kanila na kaya ko,
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na kahit na paulit-ulit nila akong binubuli,
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eh nagsishow up ako sa kanila.
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Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong naging
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resulta nung after kong mag-report sa HRD, eh.
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Basta sinabihan lang ako ni boss na
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so basta magkakaroon ng action,
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disciplinary action.
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So, is that like parang nanalo sa korte?
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But yeah, nung nag-college kasi ako,
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medyo nag-blow up naman.
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Kaya ayan, nung nag-college ako,
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doon kayo nag-start man ligaw.
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Pero ayan, dahil nga binuli niya ako before,
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ayan, pinag-mabusted ko kayong lahat.
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So doon siya na-stop
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kasi parang na-realize nung mga lalakay na parang,
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ay, palaban tong babaeng to.
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Grabe yung self-love niya sa sarili niya.
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From there, aside sa varsity ako and officer ako,
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doon nabuo yung confidence ko na
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no, I'm bigger than you.
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I'm stronger than you.
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Naging ano, mas confident ako.
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yung poster nung pangalan ko,
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picture, schedule.
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bro, manunood ako ah.
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Bro, may live ba sa Facebook yan?
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Yes, siguro, sadyang interesting lang
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na may laban, may boxing,
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kaya sila na pa-message.
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Pero hindi naman talaga mag-memessage yun.
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May-realize nung nila ng sarili nila yun eh,
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na yung ginagano nyo dati,
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yung mga inahangaan nyo na ngayon.
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It's not an easy decision to
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choose not to fight back kasi.
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The more na parang magre-revenge pa ako eh,
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huwag na, hindi na kailangan sayang sa oras.
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what can I get from fighting back din?
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It will just create noise.
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And baka mas lumaki lang yung problema.
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Hindi naman ako galit sa kanila.
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Actually, I'm at peace with them right now.
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In a way, thankful din ako kasi
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if it didn't happen,
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I think hindi din ako magiging empathic.
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Parang I wouldn't be empathizing
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with other people's struggles.
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But siguro, thanks to you guys,
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binigyan nyo ako ng another point of view,
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another perspective in my life.
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Thank you dahil pinarealize siya sa akin
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na hindi ako yung taong kinakaya-kaya lang.
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Oo, sige, fine, masakit yung mga dinanas ko.
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Pero those pains, those fears
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na pinaranas siya sa akin,
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na pinakita nyo sa akin,
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it made me to who I am right now.
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So actually, dun sa mga nang-bully sa akin,
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matagal ko na kayong napatawad.
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Buti na lang mabaito.
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Forgive is a really strong word.
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I think I forgive the act na lang,
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not the person per se.
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Pero sana, nag-character change din siya.
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Do I forgive you?
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We just move forward.
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Not gonna demand for you to apologize or anything.
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Basta okay na ako.
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Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko,
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hindi ako nagtatanim ng sama ng loob.
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Kasi the more na itanim ko siya sa sarili ko,
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kung baka kakainin lang ako ng anger or hatred.
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So mas pinili kong maging masaya,
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para makapag-move forward na ako sa life.
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You have to learn to forgive them also.
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Kasi, kunyakya, five years na nakalipas.
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Tapos, syempre makakalimutan nila yun eh.
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attack mode ka pa rin,
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tapos sila parang nakatayo lang.
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If you choose to love instead,
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be the better person,
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I think the universe will give you a lot more
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and bless you more.
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I got you a love kit, by the way.
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I dedicate this to you
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as a token of my forgiveness,
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even though you didn't ask.
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So, I'm gonna give this to you
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I've already moved forward,
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so you deserve this love kit.
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And maybe this love kit can help them,
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kumbaga, ma-realize nila
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or mag-analyze nila sa mga sarili nila na
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stop na yung ginagawa nila kasi.
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Andami na natin iniisip.
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Hopefully, you've chosen
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to brighten someone's day
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rather than making them more miserable.
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This one, I think it would be perfect din
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to share with the family.
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It also has broadies din.
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mga paborito ko pa ito eh.
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By just being kind
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and spreading love and positivity,
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yun, mabibreak na natin
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yung ganyang cycle ng pambubuli.
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Sa akin yung blue.
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Sa akin yung dalawang blue.
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sa mga bullying niyo sa akin before
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finally, ina-accept ko na
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yeah, mas talo ko lang minahal yung birthmark ko
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Right now, I'm doing well.
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Just wanna let you know na
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Even though, I don't think you care.
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I don't think you care.
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A lot of struggle,
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a lot of character development.
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Marunong na lumaban on my own.
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Alam ko na I am stronger now.
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And I am more okay na
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Like, pag inaalala ko na lang sila na
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parang tinatawa lang ko na lang
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or minsan, tinatawa namin mga friends ko
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na, ah, oh, ganun ba? Okay.
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Pero ngayon kasi,
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mas palaban na siya lalo
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and na-express niya na yung kung
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anong gusto niyang sabihin sa mga tao.
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Update sa akin na
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hindi ako natuloy sa pagiging pro.
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Ah, yun lang, no?
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Kasi na-injury ako.
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But, siguro, just like you,
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I also have a regular job now.
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Guma-admit na ako sa college.
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I wish you all the best.
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Hope that you guys
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had that said character development
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throughout the years.
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I hope sana hindi nyo na siya ulitan sa ibang tao.
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Just be kind kasi hindi na natin alam
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kung ano yung pinagdadaanan
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ng mga taong ibubuli nyo.
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I don't know kung ano na yung
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state ng life mo ngayon.
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If you have a wife
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and if you have kids already,
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regards sa kanila.
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May you have a beautiful family.
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I just wish you all the best
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and also with your family
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then as well, and with your kids.
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Number one, siguro,
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Nagpapasalamat ako sa inyo
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dahil ginawa nyo akong ganito.
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Number two, sorry
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kasi naging ganyang kayo.
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Thank you, nabigyan mo ako ng urgency
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para to be stronger
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but hindi yun yung intention mo.
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Pero thank you pa rin.
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You don't have to say sorry
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siguro libra mo na lang ako.
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Best wishes, all the best.
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Best wishes, actually.
