DARRYL YAP PART 1: Manhid na sa bashing || #TTWAA Ep. 200
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sobrang lumabang ng directoril.
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I've been hearing things that I really don't like,
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especially from people in showbiz,
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from people I look up to.
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It hurts, it hurts.
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Meron akong yabang sa sarili na kahit ano malulusutan ko.
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May hangganan lahat.
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I realized na makakahanap at makakahanap ka ng katapat.
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Dito ko lang sasabihin to sa'yo, Tita Astor.
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I remember when I went to Batanes,
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Nagnakaw ako dun sa Honesty Store.
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For God's sake, Honesty Store!
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Anong ninakaw mo dun?
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Alam mo yung Hansel na biskwit at saka Mountain Dew.
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Diyos ko, kung gusto ko magbura ngayon, tinipigilan ko lang.
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Magandang araw, Pilipinas!
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At sa ating mga kababayan sa ibang bansa,
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welcome to Kick-Pock with Astor Amara.
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Sa araw na ito, mga kaibigan,
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ay isa na namang pong spesyal na celebrity ang ating makakakwentuhan.
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Sa pagiging kontrobersyal,
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but he is a very famous writer, director, producer,
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and social media influencer.
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Mga kaibigan, it's my honor and my pleasure
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to have him for the very first time.
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Mga kaibigan, let's all welcome,
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Direk Darryl Yap!
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Tita, maraming salamat.
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Nako, it should be me.
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No, no, no, it's me.
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Hello po sa nanonood ng TikTok.
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I always watch TikTok, pinapanood ko yung mga interviews mo,
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and sabi ko, finally, finally.
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So, when you, again, parang nag-update na ano,
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pwede ka na ba? May friend ka?
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So, sabi ko, sige po, right away, without...
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Kaya nagulat ako eh, di ba?
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I was just, nagbabakasakali lang ako,
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and then you said yes.
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Kaya nandito kami ngayon.
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Kumusta ka na, anak?
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I know it's been a long time na hindi tayo nakikita.
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The last time we saw each other is last year lang pala.
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Last year lang pala.
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Doon sa prequel, yung...
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Martyr or mother.
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Well, I've been very busy, thank God.
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We first met each other po, 2019, via Jowaball.
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Tapos, nangako na ako ng interview nun.
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At TikTok was just parang baby-baby pa nun.
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Wala pa ang TikTok at that time.
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2020, actually, ang TikTok magsimula.
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For my column kasi eh, di ba?
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Gusto kita yung one-on-one at that time.
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So, after po nun, parang ambilis lahat ng pangyayari.
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From Jowaball, I get to...
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It turned out to be a very successful movie.
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Na-reach ang 100 million mark after nun, Tito Aster.
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Viva entrusted me of launching the Viva Max platform.
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Then, it was not really sexy pa during that time.
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So, I was the one tasked to launch it.
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Kasi, I have very stable platform in social media.
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So, Boss Vic told me to launch the Viva Max streaming platform.
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So, after po nun, ito sa monthly regular movie making.
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Tapos, nag-stop ako.
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I wanted to have a break.
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2021, I stopped doing Viva Max because it's turning to be very sexy during that time.
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And parang pinagbigyan ko po ang Viva.
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I only did two sexy eh.
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The paglaki ko, gusto ko maging porn star.
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Pagkasunod na taon yun.
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After po nun, I got allergic to boobs and all.
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So, sabi ko, baka hindi ko muna kaya.
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Sabi ko, baka hindi ko muna kaya.
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Nag-stop ako ng November.
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I ventured into...
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Saying yes naman to political content.
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Tapos, after po nun, I did Made in Malacanang.
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And then, Martyr or Murderer.
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And now, after Martyr or Murderer, I went back to my...
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You know, to the typical me doing comedy, drama, kind of movie.
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Yun naman talaga eh.
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Doon ka tumatak eh.
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Doon ka tumatak eh.
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So, namiss na ang tao kasi I get no division from there.
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Walang political.
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Of course, when you started the...
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Jewel Ball, that was the launching movie of Kim Molina.
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Yeah, we launched each other.
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That's my first movie also.
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Yes, for mainstream mo yun, di ba?
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O, kasi nagsimula ka sa mga short films, di ba?
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I remember, yung unang-unang short film mo was Escuaterina.
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Yeah, Escuaterina, yes.
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Why that particular subject matter?
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I have theater actors po kasi in Olonga po.
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And one is doing ballet.
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And this person lives in Escuater area.
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So, that really inspired me.
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To create a content of how similar ballet movements is to, you know, the life of a squatter person.
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So, dun ko na-realize, tita Astra, meron palang similarity yung pagbubuhat ng pag-iigib,
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sa pag-twist ng risk, yung pagtitingkayad mo sa kanal, sa pag-titipto ng balerina.
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So, I just got that.
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Yung connection na yun, ginawa mo na.
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And to think, ballet is dance for the rich and altas, you know.
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Yeah, that's, oo.
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So, I got the attention of...
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the film movers in the country.
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After winning awards for Cinema Region, dun ako medyo na-open sa filmmaking.
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Yun ang parang start ko na, well, may pera pala dito.
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Something like that.
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Pero prior to that, you were into theater.
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Yes, I'm really a theater person.
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Okay, dun ka nagsimula.
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Yes, I'm a playwright at first.
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Before anything else, I'm a playwright.
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Ang sinusulat ko talaga, dula.
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So, mayigising dula, dula ng iisahing yugto, o one-act play.
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Yun po ang start ko talaga.
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So, college graduate ka na ito, o high school pa lang?
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Nagsusulat na ako, literature, elementary pa lang.
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I'm really into poetry.
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Mas biha sa akong mag-Tagalog kesa mag-Ingles.
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Ang mga sinusulat ko noon, Tagalog na pati sa school organs, sa mga newspaper.
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Yan ang ginagawa ko po, talumpati, tula, dula.
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Yan po ang ano, parang gusto ko magsulat.
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Magsulat na magsulat.
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Bago tayo mag-usapan, yung professional,
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Ayun, na dalawa lang kayo magkapatid.
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Your elder sister and you, of course.
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And then, your parents are both...
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High school teachers.
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My papa is a former, retired na sila parehas ngayon,
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former DepEd regional supervisor for sports, for physical education.
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My mom na malaki, lalaki si papa.
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So, my mom naman, my mama naman, is a biology teacher.
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So, talagang ang playground ko po ay...
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Yung school nila.
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I don't study in their school, it's not allowed.
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Pero, ang akin pong mga ninong at ninang ay lahat teachers.
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So, ang laki ng influensya sa'yo?
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Maybe the discipline.
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Kasi when it comes to studying, I'm a very studious person.
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Even until now, I super read a lot.
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Super read a lot.
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Ang ano ko lang dun, tita, strict.
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Sa ora, sa mga requirements, sa mga medyo mataasang expectation.
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Because, pag anak ka ng teacher, ang hirap na hindi ka-achiever.
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Kahit sila, hindi naman ini-impose.
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But, sa dalawa, nanay at tatay ko,
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ang nanay ko ang talagang medyo stricto sa pag-aaral.
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Ang tatay ko naman, basta kaming dalawang magkapatid,
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meron lang kami kinahiligan na sport.
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Okay na sa kanya.
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Pero, ang nanay ko, grades talaga ang...
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Parang yun sa kanya.
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Though, when we grew up, kami yung dalawang magkapatid,
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realized na grades are not the reflections of learning.
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But, my mother really insisted of us getting good grades.
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Parang it's a barometer of, you know,
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So, I understood naman.
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Yung ate mo, anong tinapos?
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Mas matanda ako kay Casey.
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Ah, younger sister.
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Yeah, younger sister.
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My younger sister, one palang ka eh.
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Kaso lang, mahina ang loob eh.
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So, ako lang nag-arts.
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My family really pushed me to become a lawyer.
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They wanted me to study law.
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But, dahil ako ang black sheep ng family...
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Pinuconsider mo yung sarili yung black sheep?
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Kung may mas black pa sa black sheep,
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nakuha ako siguro yun.
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So, ang ano ko...
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At least, aminado ka.
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But, my sister, kahit na artistically inclined,
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nakumbinsin nila lang mag-nurse.
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So, nasa London ngayon.
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So, tagal na siguro mga.
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Before showing ng Jowa Ball, nakalipad eh.
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Gano'n na din katagal.
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And that was also the start ng...
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Of my career, yeah.
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Yeah, of your career.
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In mainstream, yes po.
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Yeah, mainstream, yes.
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Since you were a kid, sabi mo kasi,
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elementary pa lang, nagsusulat ka na,
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nag-ano ka na ng poem,
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nagkakapagsulat ka na.
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Yung artistic side in you, lumalabas na talaga.
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When you were a kid, kumusta ka?
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Well, I'm very blessed.
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Though not financially or via materials,
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a lot of people, especially in Subic,
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in Olongapo, we have lots...
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I mean, hindi naman basta lang sa Subic.
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We have a lot of cases of broken families.
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But I'm very blessed that my mom and my dad,
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ang nanay at tatay ko,
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hanggang ngayon ay masayang magkasama.
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So maybe yun yung parang pinaka-isa sa malaking blessing
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ng pagkabata ako.
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I get to see my mama and my papa, you know.
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Yeah, yun ang natatandaan ko.
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Kasi I have a lot of friends.
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During my younger years, nahiwalay ang parents eh.
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Doon ko nakikita yung forming ng stand or conviction ng isang bata.
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So ako po, kahit pa sinasabi nila yung mga content ko,
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it's bothersome, parang may dark past,
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wala po, sobrang swerte ko po sa mga magulang ko.
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Ako po ang dagok sa relasyon nila.
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Pero sila po, never naging problema sa atin.
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How do they take it pag binabash ka?
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At first, may papa naman is, you know, very chill.
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Hindi naman yun, kumbaga nunchalant ang tatay ko.
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Pero ang nanay ko, you know, of course, yeah.
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At first, she was very worried.
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Lalo na, a lot of intrigues, a lot of lies, yun lang.
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If it is true, hindi kami apektado eh.
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Pero pag gawa-gawa, tita.
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Aster, medyo malambot ang magulang ko kasi patolera din eh.
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Bungangera kasi ang nanay ko eh.
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Tama na, teacher, teacher.
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So, gustong pumatol, gustong magano.
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Pero sinabi ko sa kanya na, it's part of my life now.
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And with that bashing, you know, with that bashing comes the cashing eh.
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So, I told my mama na, bash is cash.
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So, when she is starting to experience
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the flow of the blessings or the money,
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okay na sa kanya.
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Kahit iba siya ko araw-araw.
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Parang feeling niya eh, yun ang ano naman,
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signos na may paparating na biyaya.
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So, at first, emotional na sila.
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Siyempre sa mother, anak niyang sinasaktan.
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After a while, okay na.
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Nung ano na, may kotse na, okay na.
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May sariling bahay.
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May okay na si mama.
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I remember, well, may minabasa ako somewhere.
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You were still a kid, dalaw kayong magkapatid, of course, your parents.
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You were just renting a place, small house.
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And then there came a point na parang pinaalis kayo ng mga kamag-anak mo pa rin.
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So hard to explain but when we were young,
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we used to rent sa isang kamag-anak na nasa states.
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Dumating na yung punto na i-renovate and all.
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And we have nowhere to go since high school pa lang kami nun
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and nag-start pa lang yun.
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Alam niyo po, ang Pilipinas ay isa sa mga bansang may pinakamababang pasahod sa mga guro.
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So during that time, ang ginagapang ng mga magulang ko ang pag-aaral naming magkapatid.
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Tapos hindi pa kami makapag-aaral sa public because my parents,
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they have position sa public school sa Olongapo.
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So parang medyo conflict of interest if ever.
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Especially kami ng kapatid ko, parang we excel.
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We are quizzers, we aspire for honors.
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Baka ma-politicize kung magpa-public.
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So we are studying during our elementary days sa private school.
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It's very expensive.
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Ang nangyari po, parang nung pinaalis kami dun sa nererentahan namin,
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for a while, nakitira kami sa lola ko, mother's side.
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Pero it's a very, very small room.
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I remember ourselves, sobrang sa kama, nanay-tatay ko, kami ng kapatid ko, kutsyon sa sahig.
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It's very small room. It's very small.
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So after po nun, parang feeling ko yun din po ang ano, yun din ang paraan ng Diyos.
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Laging ganun ang tingin ko eh.
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Parang gusto niyang may maranasan kayo.
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Yeah. May maranasan.
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May maranasan or to push you forward.
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Ang problema kasi doon, Tita Astor, medyo mahina din ang loob ng parents ko during that time.
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Matagal na silang nag-uurong-surong magpatayo ng bahay.
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Kahit naman may lote ang tatay ko sa northern part ng Zambales.
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Ang problema, wala silang lakas ng loob na mag-loan, mag-utang.
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Pero nung wala kaming sariling bahay, we get to experience.
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Alam mo na yun, kahit ka mag-anak mo, kahit lola mo, mahirap talaga makisama.
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Hindi mo ano yun eh.
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I'm sure a lot of people will relate.
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Ang hirap uminom ng tubig, buksan mo yung rep nung kamag-anak.
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Parang lahat ng kilos yung nakikita.
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Kahit hindi naman. Kahit hindi naman.
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I mean, kung ikaw hindi makapalang mukha mo, medyo tatablan ka sa...
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Ayun, ang hirap gumamit ng mga gamit na hindi sa'yo.
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Nung na-experience na ng parents ko yun, little by little,
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nakapundar sila ng maliit na bahay sa Zambales.
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Parang na-challenge.
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Na-challenge. Maybe that's the blessing of it.
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That's the silver lining of what happened.
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So nung high school ka,
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anong mga nabago sa'yo?
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As early as elementary, lumalabas na yung talent mo eh.
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Yung art talent mo eh.
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Moving forward, marami ng ibang additional interest ang lumabas sa'yo.
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Well, I remember it was the latest part of my high school life.
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I really accepted that I was gay.
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Siguro mga ano na yun, mga latter part naman.
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Pero hindi alam pa ng parents mo?
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Third year, fourth year, I guess alam naman nila.
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Nakakaramdam sila pero hindi lang nila makonfirm.
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I remember, nai-excite ako sa Miss Universe.
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Not naman saying na lahat ng lalaking interesado sa Miss Universe.
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Pero interesado ako sa embroidery ng gown.
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Very, very weird.
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So sabi ko, okay.
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Pwede ka pala maging fashion designer?
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Well, hindi ako marunong pero of course, alam naman natin yung maganda sa hindi.
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May appreciation ka doon.
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During the latter part yun, because I used to have a girlfriend eh.
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Even elementary days, I used to have crushes on girls eh.
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May crush-crush ako naman.
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Tapos nung high school, nagka-girlfriend ako.
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Parang one, parang dalawa.
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Yung isa parang fling-fling pero yung isa official.
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I realized I was gay right mga third year high school.
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Tapos I was running to become president of the whole school.
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But I'll not win if I accept I'm gay eh.
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Parang people have this judgment or prejudice.
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So I got a girl to become my girlfriend.
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So I can prove to them that I'm not gay.
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So after winning the elections, I'm trying to break it up to the girl.
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Pero naaawa ako. Parang may ganun na ako.
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Sorry to say, sorry to butt in.
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Pero it seems na parang ginamit mo yung girl.
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Parang, parang ganun.
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But to be fair to myself naman, I felt something naman.
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I really fell in love with a girl.
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I remember, parang almost two years kami eh.
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Oo, matagal yun ah.
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Ngalay na ngalay nga ako, tita.
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I remember po na I had that relationship.
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And then, even my mom, even mama, she's asking me.
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Sabi niya, ano ba yung ano mo? Ano bang ginagawa mo?
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Parang gusto sabihin na nanay ko,
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Hoy, bakla ka. Ba't nakikipagrelasyon ka?
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Parang ganun. Parang gusto niya akong ganunin.
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Pero I felt something for the girl.
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I mean, we're okay now. I don't want to mention her name.
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But she's married now.
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She's married now.
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I think she has kids na.
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Even her parents were okay eh.
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I never had a bad blood naman with the girl.
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I remember, ano pa eh.
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They greeted me with the success of Made in Malacanang.
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And she must be so proud also.
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Maybe. I don't know. I don't know. I don't wanna ask.
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During that time, bae ka?
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No, I think I'm really gay.
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Alam mo, tita Astor, I never...
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Well, we kissed. Pero I remember the feeling I don't like it.
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So ngayon talagang hundred percent.
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Yeah. Though I'm not that colorful.
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I'm not very flamboyant.
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Hindi naman kailangan eh. Hindi naman kailangan.
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Pero I'm not really attracted to girls.
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I don't think I was.
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You tried it. You did.
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I have a crush. I don't know what happened.
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Sa totoo lang, tita Astor, I envy those...
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I envy my gay friends who are very definite and very particular with the history of their gayness.
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I mean, alam nila kung kailan nagsimula o ano.
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I never had a chance.
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All I remember was I'm really crushing on the hunks.
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Kila Carlos Agassi.
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But that came latter part na.
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Latter part na. So I remember having a crush on girls.
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I find it cute. I don't know what happened.
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I don't know what happened.
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Since inamin mo na rin that you're really gay, paano ito tinanggap ng lalo na ng father mo?
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Oo, tatay ko. Kasi ang tatay ko arnis.
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Nag-a-arnis. Nagde-baseball.
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Kaya nga eh. Diba?
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You know what? There's a funny story.
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Pinana kasi ako January 7 eh. During that time, it's palarong pambansa time.
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Alam to ng mga nag-aaral.
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Merong division of city schools na nag-aaral.
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Kung sports, tapos regional meet, tapos may national meet.
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Ang tatay ko, since nag-i-head ng Region 3, Central Luzon, nasa Baguio, nagtitraining ng baseball.
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Nung papanganak ako, umuwi ang tatay ko from Baguio.
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Eh during that time, para mga 7 hours ang Baguio to Olongapo, wala pang express eh.
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Halos madapa daw yung tatay ko para lang daw mailagay yung baseball sa ulo ko.
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That's why I'm named Darryl eh. Darryl is, Darryl Strawberry is a baseball player.
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Kasya lang, hindi ako mag-baseball.
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Jack Stone, tita Astrid.
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Sabi, 7 exhibitions, kayang-kaya ko pa yan.
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Pero ang tatay ko talaga, pagdating niya, talagang, sabi niya, nilagay daw eh.
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Nilagay daw eh. Sabi niya, gusto ko talaga maging baseball player yung…
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Maging baseball star, balang araw.
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Diba? Sinasama niya ako sa games. I remember, during elementary days,
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he enrolled me into a taekwondo class.
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So, nag-black belt ako, tita Astrid.
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O ngayon, alam niyo na eh, mga galit sa akin.
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Dalikado medyo ah. So…
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So, pinagbigyan mo ang tatay mo?
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Yun po. Yun po siguro, tita Astrid. Gusto niya ako mag-taekwondo, pinagbigyan ko.
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Gusto niya ako mag-swimming, pinagbigyan ko.
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Pero yung sepak takraw, baseball at saka arnis, hindi kaya ng beauty ko talaga yun, promise.
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Hindi ko kaya yung nag-flip sa ere and all. So…
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Sa tingin ko, fair to say na I tried my best to be a good son to my papa.
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I tried. I tried my very hard para maging worthy of, you know, his pride and all.
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And he knows it. Even though pagod na pagod ako sa klase and all.
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Kasi sobrang active ko sa school eh. I'm an English quizzer, I'm a historian.
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Nag-ano ako eh, naglumalaban ako.
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Nag-excel ka sa school.
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Lumalaban ako sa mga quizby-quizby. So…
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After review, we go to the dojo, the Korean dojo. I do taekwondo.
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During Saturdays, I swim at YMCA.
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I showed him na I'm very serious of making him proud.
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So when the time comes that bubukadkad na ako, sinumbat ko lahat itaas.
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Sinabi ko talaga na…
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Pinagbigyan kita.
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Pinagbigyan kita pa mula bata ako.
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Tinry nating idiretso ang paa ko sa sipa-sipa pero nakatipto pa na ako.
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I think you should also hear me out.
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So when I came out to my father, to my mom, I don't need to, you know, hindi ko kailangan…
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Kasi sense na niya eh.
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But we are a very vocal family. I mean, it's very evident.
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It's very evident sa akin, tita, na ang communication lines ng pamilya.
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Pag may problema, we sit down. We don't dodge it. We don't give it a cold shoulder or anything.
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We talk about it.
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So when the time comes, I went to…
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I was with a girlfriend pa nito, the girl.
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I went to Manila na.
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I remember I was studying.
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I met someone, a guy.
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This guy, I fell in love with a guy na.
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I told my girlfriend that I fell in love with a guy na.
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Tapos I have to tell my family because I don't like lying to them.
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So when I came out to my parents, nung nagladlad ako sa pamilya ko, combo yun.
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Nagladlad ako, may boyfriend na ako.
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Walang intro-intro.
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Parang wala silang choice.
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Wala, walang choice.
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Pero parang tinanggap ng tatay mo?
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My father is a very good man. Wala akong narinig na masakit na salita.
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Siyempre, alam ko, pag silang dalawa nalang mag-asawa sa gabi, pinag-uusapan nila ako.
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Pero hindi ako nakarinig ng kahit ano.
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Lalo na, tita Astor, ang mga ninong ko, ang mga kumpare ng tatay ko,
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police, general, coach ng iba't-ibang karate, ganyan.
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So sa tingin ko, malaki rin. Mahirap din ang pindahan.
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Mahirap din ang pinagdaanan ng tatay ko kung paano ine-explain sa mga kumpare nila na ang anak ko ganito.
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Oo, ano nangyari? Parang kasama ng anak ko yan na mag-taekwondo, mag-swimming, and stuff like that.
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So wala akong ano. Wala akong masabi. Wala akong nakuwang judgment.
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Though, ang isang request niya lang, siyempre,
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huwag ko siyang bibigyan ng dahilan para magkaroon ng diferensya sa ibang tao.
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Alam mo yung pag nabastos kasi ako.
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Masasaktan sila. So siguro yun ang request niya.
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I can't remember the exact words pero sinabi niya lang sa akin,
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kung yan ka talaga, hindi niya sinabing wala kami magagawa eh.
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Kami, lagi kami nakasuporta sa iyo.
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Ayaw lang namin na bibigyan mo kami ng dahilan para masaktan kami.
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Kasi nasasaktan ka, something like that.
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My father is a good man.
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Itong first boyfriend ko is parang mga three years.
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Okay. Matagal din.
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And I don't remember myself.
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I don't remember myself being so deeply connected.
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You know, it's more of curiosity eh.
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During that time, I don't know the relationship between a man.
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So I think it's more of discovery and exploration.
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And that was the first boyfriend.
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The second boyfriend though was really something serious.
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That was seven years and…
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Dito ka nasaktan gusto?
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Yeah. I can't say naman na…
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Kasi parang pag mapapanood niya ito, yan na naman eh.
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Kapag magkwento ako, parang ako yung nasaktan.
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Pero the reason why that seven years failed is because of me.
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At least inaamin mo.
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Baliktad, ikaw pa ang nag-cheat ha.
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Yes, ako pa ang nag-cheat. Yeah.
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So, I don't fall in love with straight men eh.
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So, I cheated a lot ni Taastro.
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So, the seven years was, you know, a constant system of us being in love,
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him forgiving me, something like that.
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Until he cannot take it anymore.
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During that time, we had a lot of responsibilities.
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Ang daming mga kumpanya na ang nag…
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Kasi na, we performed during corporate events.
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So, ang daming na nag-down payment and all.
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But we broke the relationship.
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We can't see each other.
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So, ang daming kong naging legal concerns when it comes to money.
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I have to return a lot of money.
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It really hit me hard.
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So, yun talaga yung naging downfall ko.
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I remember it was nearing a million already.
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During that time, I don't have anything.
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So, we can't work.
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So, we can't fulfill our duties and our contract.
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He's my musical director.
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He's the one who's singing.
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I'm just directing the play.
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I write the play.
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He's the composer.
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So, I guess it can't work na eh.
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So, we have to return the money.
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And the thing is, sobrang lapit na ng mga atraso.
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I remember being in the darkest place of my life.
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I have a fallen relationship.
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I don't have work.
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I have a lot of legal responsibilities.
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A lot of people suing me already.
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It's just a good thing.
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I have a short film that won in Pampanga.
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I can't remember.
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Hindi pa itong Squaterina?
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No, hindi pa po yung Squaterina.
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I remember the title of the short film was Bago Ako Lumipad.
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And then it won sa CLTV.
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Yung CLTV 36 channel ng Pampanga.
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Tapos ang isa po siya na panalunan doon is sa Trip to Batanes.
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So, ako sabi ko, I told my staff.
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Kasi nung naghiwalay kami ni Ek, nahati yung grupo eh.
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So, may mga sumama sa kanya, may mga nag-stay sa akin.
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Puntahan na nila yung Batanes.
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Sabi naman nila sa akin,
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Sir, parang mas ikaw ang nangangailangan yan.
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Mag-isip-isip ka muna, ganyan.
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So, ako sabi ko, sige.
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Kasi ano eh, I had suicidal tendencies already.
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I can't pay a million.
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My parents are, you know, very problematic.
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That's why sabi ko, ako dagok sa buhay nila eh.
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Imagine earning like less than 20,000
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and you have to pay like a million.
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Di ba? So, you can imagine the hardships.
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I remembered gold.
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Going to Batanes, I was really suicidal.
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Ang nakakatawa pa dyan, Tita Astor.
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Di, nagsa-search ako.
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Sabi ko, wow, ang ganda ng Batanes.
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Baka ma-uplift ako.
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Mawala yung iniisip ko magpakamatay.
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Alam mo, Tita Astor, sa mga yunong eraplano,
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papalapit na kami sa Batanes.
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Anong in-explain ko sa Batanes?
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Dapat New Zealand-ish, parang green, ganyan.
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Tita Astor, pagdating ko ng Batanes,
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saktong-sakto, kaingin pala.
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Itim na itim lahat.
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Sabi ko, gusto ko talaga ako magpakamatay.
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Sobrang depressing.
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Alam mo yung nasa taas pa lang ako.
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Exactly the opposite ng iniexpect mo.
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Exactly the opposite.
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Nasa taas pa lang ako.
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So lahat kami sakay nung maliit na plane ng PAL.
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Pagkatingin namin lahat doon,
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hindi ko kilala yung mga foreigner,
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hindi ko kilala yung mga ano.
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Nagtinginan kaming lahat.
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Tapos sabi nung stewardess,
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ah, ganito po pag first week of June,
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nagsusunog po ng damo dito.
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Hanggang kailan po yan?
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Hanggang second week of June?
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Five days lang ako doon, Tita.
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So makikita kayong Batanes,
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So sabi ko sa sarili ko,
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depressed na nga ako.
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Sobrang depressed pa nung madadatnan ko.
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But that was really,
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you know, an awakening to me.
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I'm not really a religious person,
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pero it was like God talking to me
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when I went to Batanes eh.
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To be very extra honest,
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I went there with nothing.
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I only have like 2,000 pesos.
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I always tell my staff,
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I wanna go back to Batanes,
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but I can't pa during...
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Dito ko lang sasabihin to sa'yo, Tita Astor.
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I remember when I went to Batanes,
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Nagnakaw ako doon sa Honesty Store.
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That's an Honesty Store.
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For God's sake, Honesty Store.
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Anong ninakaw mo doon?
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Alam mo yung Hansel na biskwit,
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at saka Mountain Dew.
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Kung gusto ko magmura ngayon,
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pinipigilan ko lang.
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Kaso lang, parang sayang.
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Wala mo nakakakita.
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Ganun na hiniisip ko.
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So it was 18 pesos for,
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you know, it's 18 pesos.
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During that time,
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it's like 12 pesos pa lang yata ang Mountain Dew.
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6 pesos yung Hansel.
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Alam mo yung Hansel, Tita Astor?
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Yes, yes, of course.
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So I remember eating that.
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Tapos doon kasi sa Honesty Store,
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tapos susulat mo yung binili mo,
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pag iuhulog mo yung pera mo doon sa...
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wala na talaga akong pera.
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20 yung pera ako, Tita Astor.
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Pag hinulog ko yun,
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saan ko ako kukukua ng sukle?
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Wala namang suklean doon.
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inaabogado ko lang sa sarili ko.
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Wala talaga akong bad plan magbayad.
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so sabi ko, okay.
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I always get teary-eyed
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when I talk about this sa
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mga talks ko sa universities,
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even to online classes.
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I tell them that was the darkest moment of my life.
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I went to an Honesty Store
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got a Hansel and a Mountain Dew
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without paying it.
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Then I told my staff,
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I told my team now,
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when we were, you know, booming,
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babalik ako sa Batanes,
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you could definitely give 18,000
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to the Honesty Store.
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I really, really...
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ginawa mo ng 18,000.
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Parang tumubo na.
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Sabi ko, sobrang...
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Masaramdam ka ba ng guilt feeling at that time?
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I was very hungry, Tita Astor.
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Yun lang ang nararamdaman ko.
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Gutom ako at uhaw ako.
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Ang OA ng environmental fee sa Batanes,
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There was parang mga,
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apat yung island kasi doon eh.
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Every time you go to the island,
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Pay environmental fee.
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So, wala talaga akong makain.
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I remember eating at a table.
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I only ordered silog.
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Then yung family nung katabi ko,
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may lobster, may ganyan.
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I mean, not for anything na naiingit ka or ano,
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but you get to compare.
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Siyempre kay Kapano.
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And then it hit me,
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while walking at Sabtang,
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na chaos creates beauty talaga.
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All the five months of my life,
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it's all chaotic.
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But when I saw Sabtang,
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I saw there was a family of goat.
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It's a black terran,
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so sunog na sunog because of kaingin.
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But the goats are playing.
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Oh, parang they're used to it already.
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Yeah, the goats are playing.
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So, being a writer,
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being a person in love with literature,
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seeing someone happy with that kind of environment,
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gave me really a strong signal na
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dapat makabangon ako.
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Yun lang yung inisip ko.
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I was very thin, I remember.
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I was only 40 kilograms during that time.
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Ang nangyari doon,
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pag uwi ko, nasa eroplano pa lang ako,
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I can't be like this.
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Once I made lapag na to Clark,
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I told them, I called them.
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There was no signal in Batanes eh.
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So, after five days,
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I called my staff and said,
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Tomorrow, you compile all my one-act plays.
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Yung one-act play kasi,
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yung tao nakatingin lang sa'yo ng diretsyo.
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Mangyayari na lahat doon sa harapan na yun.
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No change of setting,
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no change of lights, everything.
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You're just focused watching a one-act play.
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Pinahanap ko lahat ng one-act play ko.
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That's the start of Vincente Minns.
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So, lahat ng upload namin sa Vincente Minns,
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Hindi gumagalaw because it's a one-act play.
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So, during that time,
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I'm not allowed to post anything crass or rough
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because I'm working with NCCA,
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the National Commission for Culture and the Arts.
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As what? Ano ka doon sa NCCA?
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Well, I own a community theater
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so we report to them once in a while.
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We get to be visited by a lot of NCCA directors
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and teachers and mentors.
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So, I can't risk it.
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pag nag-post ako sa page ko
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ng mga bastos or may mura-mura,
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they might get offended.
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And that's the only source of income I have though.
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It's very, very little.
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Pinapost ko doon sa isa kong staff.
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Ano ko na siya? Si Vincente.
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Staff ko na siya.
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Siya nagbibideo sa amin.
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Alimbawa, meron kaming ipipit sa corporate.
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Ito yung gawa namin.
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Siya yung nagbibideo noon.
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So, sabi ko, paggamit ako ng page mo,
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papost ko lahat ng one-act play ko.
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Started with Jowa Ball,
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mga bagay na wala,
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ay mga bagay na hindi na dapat
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Dire-diretsyo na yun.
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Lahat ng one-act play ko, pinost ko.
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We were sleeping during that time.
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Ako, I had to take a lot of calls
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because I have a lot of duties,
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financial duties.
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My parents paying them like 5,000 a week, imagine.
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Those are 7 people times 5 a week.
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Sobrang gulo na ng utak ko.
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Nagulat kami, tita Asher,
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one night, nag-one million yung Jowa Ball.
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and that piece is a girl talking to God,
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shouting, yelling at God,
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talking to God like they're tropa,
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something like that.
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After an overnight,
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ah, sige, try natin.
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So tinanong ako ng staff ko,
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kailan po tayong mag-upload?
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inisip ko kung kailan mag-upload.
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This is on Facebook?
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This is on Facebook.
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I don't know YouTube way, way, way ba.
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though YouTube na una,
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pero I don't see...
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The reason why I don't like films,
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ang tagal ng feedback.
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pag nagpatawa ka,
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alam mong effective ka.
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wow, okay, ang galing.
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hintay ka pa ng review.
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So nung nakita ko po
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yung one-act play namin,
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naghahanap pa yung mga tao,
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more, more, more like that.
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Tinanong ako ng staff ko
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kung kailan namin ipopost.
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Tinanong ako ni Vincent.
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why not we post it every Wednesday?
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Because the cinemas,
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they change the movies every Wednesday.
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Oh, yes. Oo, tama.
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gusto mo ba mag-cinema?
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So with Sentiments,
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we uploaded contents
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So we try and try.
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we get two million.
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we get four million.
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Yeah, we were very, very hot
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during those times.
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So kami, very happy.
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So anong nangyari?
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My first monetization
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paid a lot of duties.
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So that's the moment
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ay hindi pa ako nag-breakdown eh.
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Nung nakabayad na ako
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doon ako nag-break.
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May dami na naming
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napangakuan na na-shows.
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May mga workshops kaming
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naningil na yung mga studio
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na hindi na namin mapuntahan.
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So ang dami eh, tita.
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Kahit mag-ano lang eh,
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mag-print ng ticket sa play,
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bibili ka ng costume na ganito,
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lahat yun utang naman eh.
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We don't have any financier naman eh.
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times are really great.
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They saw the sacrifices I made
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We really, really
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went through hell.
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in one order of ulam
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apat ang naghahate.
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We went through hell.
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we are very grateful
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with the things that are coming.
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Sila pa rin, yeah.
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I never changed my team.
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Yung team ko since 2012,
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kasama ko ngayon.
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Sa akin na sila tumanda.
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Sa akin na sila nagkano.
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to share, you know,
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of making it for them
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because they didn't falter naman.
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They didn't leave me naman.
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Hindi ka tinalikuran.
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Sa kabila ng pindahan,
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Pipick-uping ko lang doon sa Batanes.
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Realization mo when you were there.
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Ang realization ko po doon talaga,
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I have to experience pain.
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I don't wanna sound like
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I'm mayabang or I'm bragging.
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You know kasi, Tita Astor,
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if you think you're matalino,
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if you think you're smart,
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you have this mentality na
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you can get away with everything.
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knowing how high my IQ is,
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I had to check it.
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Meron akong yabang sa sarili na
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kahit ano malulusutan ko.
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Maybe I cheat on my boyfriend.
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May it be I cheat into contracts.
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So may hangganan lahat.
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So at an early age,
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well, it's not very early,
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makakahanap at makakahanap ka ng katapat.
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I'm very focused.
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I'm very planted.
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I'm very grounded.
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I'm very much aware
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that this is not forever.
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someone better will come.
35:31.6
I'm very much aware.
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That's why it's my strength.
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I've been through a lot and
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my realization in Batanes,
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took me to places.
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I never thought I would go.
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first inupload mo muna yung
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Pero doon ba na-pick up ng Viva ito?
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Paano nagnangyari yung
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partnership mo with Viva?
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Ang problema sa akin, Tita Astor,
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sabi ko nga po sa inyo,
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I have a weird mind.
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I always get to play around.
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Now the thing is,
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sinesend ko po sa Viva,
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yung mga gawa ko,
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they don't read my message.
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Kahit 1 million subscribers na ako.
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So ang ginawa ko po,
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nung nagmi-million na kami,
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kumuha ako ng music ng Star Records
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tsaka ng Viva Records
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kasi po, nanonotify sila
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na ginagamit yung music nila.
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So ang ginawa ko po,
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yung Star Cinema tsaka yung Viva Records,
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nung ginamit ko po yung
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kanta ni Vice Ganda
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and then kanta naman ni Sharon Coneta
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that's Viva and Star.
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So nagpadala po ng email sa akin
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Siyempre, kukulang attention mo.
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refrain from using.
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We will let it go this time.
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Parang feeling ko yun ang kanilang SOP.
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Sabi ko, sabi yung sentiment.
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Uy, naano na tayo?
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Pinlag tayo ng Viva,
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tsaka ng Star Cinema.
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Napansin na tayo.
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Ano pong gagawin natin?
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May nalalaman pa dun yung Viva na ano eh,
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parang that is a 10 million lawsuit
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because of Sharon Coneta
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and George Cansec
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or something like that.
36:59.6
Ano pong gagawin natin?
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Sabi ko, gamit tayo ulit ng isa pa.
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tingin ka sa Viva.
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So, hanap sila sa Viva.
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Gumamit po ako ulit.
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mas malaki po ang library ng Viva sa music.
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Kesa sa Star Records.
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Oh, yes. Yeah, I agree with you.
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So, they have like Sharon Coneta
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way, way back pa.
37:13.6
Regine, everybody was there.
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So, I used music.
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Hanggang naka second alert,
37:20.6
Yung fifth alert po,
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hinihingi na yung contact number ko
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kasi sa lawyer-lawyer na.
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So, sabi ko, ayan.
37:25.6
Tapos po, nung nag-
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Hindi ka natakot?
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Kasi parang feeling ko,
37:29.6
ang nireply ko, Tita Astor,
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I'm very much open
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discussing this personally.
37:34.6
Sabi ko, that's what I remember.
37:36.6
Tapos, ang nangyari,
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hindi ko na po nabasa yung reply nila.
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I went to an interview with Miss Kay,
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with Miss Karina Sanchez.
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So, after nun, Miss Kay,
37:45.6
parang she connected me to Star Cinema,
37:47.6
to Sir Enrico Santos.
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Doon kami nag-discuss.
37:50.6
While discussing the contract with Star Cinema,
37:53.6
nakita ko, may contact na pala yung Viva.
37:55.6
Then, nagpadala ko ng number ko.
37:57.6
Miss Jaz called me.
37:59.6
Tapos, I was about to sign
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nahugot ako ng Viva.
38:07.6
So, in other words, hindi yung kasalanan mo
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ng paggamit ng unlicensed songs nila?
38:12.6
I don't encourage people to do that.
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Kasi unlicensed yung paggamit mo ng nila.
38:19.6
I told Boss Vic, I told him.
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Sabi ko, that's really my way
38:23.6
to get your attention.
38:26.6
So, I told Boss Vic,
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why don't you try me?
38:29.6
You can get a hold of me.
38:31.6
You have a lot of songs,
38:32.6
but no one's using it.
38:33.6
And then, I'm not from Viva.
38:35.6
Maybe you have an offer.
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Tapos, nagulat po ako, Tita Astor,
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kasi parang nagpapaka-cool pa ako nun.
38:40.6
Hindi ko alam, agad-agad pala yun.
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So, while we were talking,
38:43.6
I remember it was 7pm.
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Mga 9.30, may contract na ako.
38:48.6
Tapos, sinanong ako, anong gusto ko?
38:51.6
Sabi ko, I'm from Olongapo.
38:52.6
I don't have anything here in Manila.
38:54.6
If you're gonna get me,
38:56.6
I don't have any place to stay.
38:57.6
I don't have a car.
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So, at an instant, si Boss Vic sabi niya,
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bigyan kita ng kondo,
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bigyan kita ng sasakyan.
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Sabi niya, so, anong kulay?
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Sabi niya, siyempre ako po,
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bilang mukhang pera,
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talagang para ako nakakita ng apparisyon mo
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So, sabi ko, okay.
39:19.6
So, I signed right away.
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Napakaswerte mo naman.
39:21.6
Yeah, very, very.
39:23.6
Takes guts, I think.
39:26.6
To not let me handle a superstar.
39:29.6
Yeah, that's my request.
39:30.6
Sabi ko, ayoko po ng...
39:32.6
Ang balik na, diba?
39:34.6
Parang feeling ko po,
39:35.6
deserve ng script ko ng Ronis.
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I don't wanna say it,
39:37.6
pero very showbiz si Sharon.
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Yun ang pagkakilala ko sa kanya.
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I was exposed to real life, talaga.
39:45.6
I used to collect house rent for prostitute.
39:49.6
If they don't approve of my art,
39:51.6
that's their taste.
39:52.6
I've been hearing things that I really don't like,
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especially from people in showbiz,
39:56.6
from people I'm friends with,
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from people I look up to,
