What Do You Really Want To Say To Your Younger Self? | Filipino | Rec•Create
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You're doing okay.
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There were a lot of times that you might thought na you're carrying the whole world,
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but it doesn't work like that.
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I guess in the past, I would always ask for other people's validation
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because I felt like whatever I'd say to myself wasn't enough.
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So I guess what I would say to my younger self is,
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just be the you that you can be.
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I'm glad you were brave.
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Despite a lot of people,
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especially family telling you to hold back in terms of your attitude,
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you pushed through and you really insisted on what you want to do in life.
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And thank you for molding and shaping the Kim,
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the baklang Kim that he is today.
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No one told me this before, but if you just keep riding the wave,
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you'll just be surprised where the wave will take you.
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And now, we're here.
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So, younger Kams was really a bit of an odd kid.
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I'm a kid who loves anime,
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Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings,
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and everything else in between.
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She tried way too hard to make friends
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to the point that she didn't feel secure about herself.
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I got bullied, I got teased.
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I also bullied some kids as well,
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which was probably not the best way to express those kinds of emotions.
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No one was humbling me down,
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and life had to humble me down.
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I remember na even though I was very very young,
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I really know that there's a lot of growing
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I think the young Joanne
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was very serious about dreams.
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The highest of highest dreams.
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Kasi, you're hopeful.
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Pero with the limited resources,
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hindi niya nagagawa yung gusto niya.
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Kaya, sabi niya sa sarili niya,
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oh, pag lumaki-laki ka,
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siya na yung gagawa ng dream mo para sayo, ha?
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I would say that the teen Joanne,
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sana would have been more vocal about her emotions
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so that she wouldn't grow up having a lot of bottled up feelings.
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If I only knew back then,
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na life is full of surprises
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and it will take you to places
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na you've never thought you'll be able to visit to,
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then maybe I was not so hard on myself.
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It might sound cliché,
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matatapos din yung mga iniisip mong ganyan.
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Stop overthinking things, maganda ka.
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Maganda ka sobra.
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I guess look forward to the future
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even if it seems so distant and so confusing pa.
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It's something that you're not gonna know until you get there, di ba?
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So far, the biggest life-changing decision that I made
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was choosing the company where I wanted to work.
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There was a time that I was really sad with my career as well.
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So, I was asking myself at that time,
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what's stopping me from switching to another job?
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And there was a fear.
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There was a fear of life, essentially.
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But then, my dad said na parang,
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bakit ka natatakot sa buhay?
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Kasi, essentially, lahat ng pwedeng mangyayari sa'yo,
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mangyayari naman.
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Kung may mangyayaring masama, kung may nangyayaring maganda,
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patuloy pa rin yung buhay eh.
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I would like to share yung first and last thing,
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first and last time I felt in love.
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Mahirap yung fact na you're ready for yourself to let go.
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I guess during this time,
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I was in a really toxic relationship
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to the point that it turned into sexual harassment.
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Pinag-usapan ako ng dalawang school.
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Eh, all-girls school ako.
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Pero, para kang nagaantay ng ticking bomb na mag-out siya
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kasi hindi siya ready.
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You know you're ready for a relationship
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when may napitira ka for yourself.
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And during that time,
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I gave too much to the point that I ridiculed myself.
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I decided to stay single for the longest time.
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I sort of moved to Europe way back 2021.
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It's definitely the biggest decision because
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if I stayed in my province,
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I wouldn't be as, I would say, successful
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as what I am right now.
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And back there, they were taking a hold of their life.
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If they want this, they will do this.
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So, I sort of got that perspective from them na
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That's something that I really thank young Joanne for
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because this is what I've been wanting ever since I was young eh.
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And then I started asking questions like,
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why not? Bakit hindi mo siya pwedeng gawin?
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And then I also took another risk when I started hosting then.
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And then more and more people started to believe in me.
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Mas exciting lang yung buhay in that way
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because you never know where you're gonna end up.
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Siguro I would say it was a good decision
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but also I've matured.
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Ramdam ko talaga na nag-mature ako.
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That's why I also tell myself na
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it's okay to be in that situation
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because I feel so much more empowered now
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and I guess to my younger self, you will feel more empowered.
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And it takes maybe a thousand conversations with yourself,
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a thousand reality checks din.
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You're just overwhelmed right now.
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Ang dami mong feelings right now.
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Sabi nila, motivation is like taking a bath.
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We need it daily.
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It made me a more brave person, a courageous person
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na whatever life throws at you,
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it's something that you can handle.
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Si Kim nung bata hindi siya naturuan masyado
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in terms of pagiging financially stable.
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Hindi talaga siya matipid.
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She's always magastos.
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Because I was still in school
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and my parents were still like funding me.
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They were the ones giving me allowance.
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Natandaan ko pa dati.
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Nakuha ko yung first paycheck ko.
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Wala pa akong banko nun.
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Natanong ako sa HR,
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Anong gagawin ko dito?
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I knew the concept of saving
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to buy a Taylor Swift merch, ganun.
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But if I knew then what I knew now,
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I would have planned period.
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Specifically sa high school kasi
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I would remember of fetching water sa labas ng bahay
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because we don't have connection sa faucet yet.
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I was old enough to understand that we were struggling
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but not old enough to help financially.
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Kailangan niyang gumawa ng paraan sa sarili niya
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gamit yung skills na meron siya.
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In one way or another,
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I'll make it the gay way.
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Hence, I applied for a job, car sales agent.
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Kasi I have so many dreams na
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I have to achieve.
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As you get older,
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nalaman mo kung paano mo minamanage yung pera mo.
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Nag-develop ako ng sarili kong excel file.
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I called it seeds of growth
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because you plant seeds with your finances.
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Until now, hindi naman siya nagbabago.
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Magastos pa rin siya.
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But there's a big difference in terms of
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what she spends her money on.
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Probably my insurances, my investments.
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Try to diversify my assets.
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I thought insurance and investments were for adults.
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Sorry, for older people only.
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It's something that I wish I could have done
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a bit more research on, on how it works.
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Kasi I thought insurance meant that you needed
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a lot of money before getting a policy.
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An insurance is basically the foundation
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of all the investments that I have.
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In order for me to enjoy more things
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without necessarily thinking about,
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oh, can I be able to proceed
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and take these big risks in my life.
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Because, you know, you're the only one
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that can really protect yourself
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and know how to protect yourself.
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Especially sa health.
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Nung bata rin ako, nagkasakit ako.
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Actually, hindi siya sakit.
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Parang nagkatinik ako sa throat ko.
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And apparently, 70,000 yung pampatanggal ng tinik na iyon.
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Kinantoyin sa akin ng tatay ko.
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Nasa isip ko, honestly pa, kung may anak ako
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tapos kailangan kong magbayad ng 70,000 na tinik.
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Isipin ko na lang, sorry anak,
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mag-adapt ka dyan sa tinik na iyon.
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It is never too late to try investments,
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specifically in insurances.
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Not everyone has one at a young age.
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So they give so many ways for you to do that
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Kasi pag tanda na, doon din naman yung punta.
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I don't think those are the types of things
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that you would regret having naman.
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Hi, younger self!
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I'm Teddy, 26 years old.
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I'm you from the future.
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Ito yung winning lottery numbers.
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I'm successful because of you.
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It's because you did not hold back.
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I mean, I'm more accepting of who I am.
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Although I'm not as loud and as ambitious
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and as kapal na mukha as I was 10 years ago.
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The me now is a reflection of who I really was
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back then if I thought more clearly.
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I would like to credit the younger Kim na
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siya kasi nag-isip ng mga planong gagawin ni adult Kim eh.
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If it weren't for you, I probably won't be alive to tell this story.
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Right now, we're working on being a businesswoman
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and a business consultant.
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So it's all because of you.
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Because you were smart, you were brave,
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and you were always stubborn.
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You made bad decisions,
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but you learned from them as well.
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Kinikilig ako because I feel like she will be very proud of me
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kasi I also write letters to my future self.
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For the future, future, future, future Kim.
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Sana nagawa mo lahat ng mga gusto mong gawin sa life.
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I see myself as a mom taking that PhD.
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Makakapanta ka ba sa Iceland
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para makita yung Northern Lights?
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Kasi pangarap yun ni Dad eh.
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I think he would thank me for the fact that
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I took the time to really think about
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what I want to be, what I want to do, what I want to become.
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I'm sort of building our finances na no?
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Para mapuntas dun sa position ni future Kim.
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But if I could impart some knowledge to you,
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what I want you to do is to just enjoy life as much as you can.
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Make the most out of every day.
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Doesn't even have to be productive.
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Making the most could be telling someone you love them
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or spending time with your family.
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I hope you're proud of the people you're with right now.
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And I hope that you are proud of who you have become.
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Sana magmahal ka ulit.
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Sana mas makapag-invest ka with your life, love, career.
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So hopefully by doing the things I'm doing right now,
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you're gonna have those in the future.
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Ikaw bahala. The world is your oyster.
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And I can't wait to meet you. Pero wait lang.
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Thank you for watching!
